Matthew 12: 33 "Either make the tree good and its fruit good, or else make the tree bad and its fruit bad; for a tree is known by its fruit. 34 You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. 35 The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him.
I'm having a hard time reconciling this within myself today.
The overflow of my mouth, lately, does certainly not speak highly of my heart. It speaks more loudly of anger, frustration, bitterness, selfishness, lack of patience, and sometimes, plain old lack of love. At least, that's what it sounds like.
And yet, I try. Well, sometimes I try. I certainly don't want to sound that way, but... It sounds lame to say "I just can't help myself." I probably can, but I'm too tired, angry, selfish. Or maybe I can't. My efforts definitely seem to be in vain.
Does that mean I'm evil? That my heart is evil?
Boy, that would suck to find out that I'm evil, when all along I thought I was a nice, generally good hearted person. Sinner saved by grace? I certainly don't feel saved sometimes. More like a bad lemon. Who wants that? I certainly don't.
Isn't it great that even when we don't FEEL like it, we can still cling to what we KNOW. I know I fight that myself. Thanks for being honest in your post here. I appreciated it. And for sending the link for me to head on over.
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